Darling look at me
I’ve fallen like a fool for you
Darling can’t you see?
I’d do anything you want me too
I tell myself, I’m into deep
Then I fall a little further
Every time you look at me
Spongebob: What if I break your trust someday?
Patrick: Trusting you is my decision, proving me wrong is yours.
Did you already experience that “feeling” when you have trusted someone so much and they proved you wrong? That situation where you never thought that that person will betray you by spilling your secret because you know that they are not someone who can do that and you trusted them so much but they proved you wrong?
Even though months already passed after that, the pain still lingers. It makes you want to cry while asking endless “whys” to yourself. There’s still this heavy weight and feeling of ‘betrayal’ in your heart whenever you see that person. You want to be mad at them and confront them and tell them how much they’ve hurt you but…it’s useless. The damage was already said and done. You can’t do anything about it anymore no matter how much you get mad and cry but to just accept the fact that things won’t be the same anymore.
It hurts. Especially if that someone you trusted so much is like a sister or brother to you. It will leave a permanent scar on your heart and a belief that if that person can betray you, then everyone can do that to you too.
Every once in a while, I’ll start to get that empty feeling in my heart again and I’ll read through our old messages to see what went wrong. We used to be so close. We talked every single day, texted 24/7, and talked on the phone for hours, and now we can hardly keep a conversation going. I miss you, I miss us, I miss the memories, I miss everything that had to do with you.